Trying Viral

NOW THAT I HAVE YOUR ATTENTION:

Hello there. Odds are you are a complete stranger whose come to snoop through my thoughts. That's because I've begun to drop this URL in every forum I venture into on the Internet. I'm curious as to what kind of traffic and responses I might get when I cast the net that far and wide. Also, it might motivate me to do something more with this blog if I get some unbiased feedback. Basically, we'll see if anarchy can be productive.

Props to Noodleguy for popping my cherry. I'll be perusing his new blog "thang" after this and maybe you should judge it for yourself. What else do you have to do if you're here?

All reactions are appreciated. All suggestions welcome. As you can tell from what follows, I haven't really decided on the true direction I'd like to take this. A news blog seems redundant at this point. I like watching movies but a movie review blog faces the same pitfall. Initially, I wanted this to be a creative venue, specifically in the form of stream-of-consciousness. But this venture has grown lonely, my words have been ghost towns.

But the breadcrumbs I've been dropping have led you here to change that.

I invite you to stay a while and snoop around, sniff at my guts, but let me know what you think of the smell. I'd like to have some fun.

To The Bitter End

Everyone has a story, though most people don't like telling theirs. They're often too full of regret, missed chances where daydreamers make a different choice. That's what set Henry apart from the pack: he never regretted anything. Even as the bombs were dropping and every camera and eye in the world was turned up toward the heavens, while people jammed the phone lines trying to make up with estranged relatives, lovers, and friends, while people dropped to their knees and begged God for forgiveness, Henry set in his hotel room and chainsmoked. He had no olive branches to extend. He didn't appreciate the concept of "the one that got away" because none ever had. And wasn't praying because he was fairly sure that there was no afterlife.

"So this is it, huh?" Henry thought to himself. "Un-fucking-believable." Sure, they had been at war, but when in the last century hadn't they been? Still, nukes flying through the air was... ridiculous. Lunatics were always running around the streets moaning about the world coming to an end. Now they were triumphant. Look, they shouted, look how the fire raineth down! They would be gloating even as mankind's greatest fury tore through their vaporizing flesh. Some people love being right no matter what.

"I wonder how long we have?" Henry thought. He stared out his room's window at the ocean waves crashing onto shore. The Pacific was dirty and cold. CNN was playing on the television, forgotten. The view now static, centered on an abandoned podium. The ticker was still zipping across the lower portion of the screen: WORLD SHOCKED------NUCLEAR OFFENSIVE CONDEMNED BY UN-----SWIFT COUNTERATTACKS SIGNAL DOOMSDAY------MAY GOD HAVE MERCY ON US ALL-----I LOVE YOU SANDY. Just that scrolling by over and over again. Henry had tried to imagine the guy that keys in the words for the ticker, when he realized what the score was, or, rather, that no one was keeping score anymore. Henry imagined that CNN employee writing a farewell to his, or her, mother or daighter or lover, etc. And, he or she had also sent out a prayer of sorts. A prayer that was being repeated over and over on television screens all over the world.

Henry lit another cigarette. "Smoke 'em if ya got 'em," Henry thought to himself and chuckled. At least he wasn't going to die of cancer or emphysema like people nagged about these days. That was a small victory. "Just keep your mind off of it," Henry told himself. "Let it be a surprise." It was then that CNN blinked out of existence and the "dead-air screen" came on in all of its gaudy-colored, geomeric glory.

A funny patch of light caught his eye. It was near a palm tree outside and to the left of the building his room was in. It was eleven o'clock in the evening, but it looked like the sun was already rising, bathing the tree in a dim glow that was still bright enough to cast a shadow. "Of course," mused Henry," I'm facing away from America. I'm missing our finale."

Numbly, he walked out on to the Mexican beach and faced the northeast. The distant mushroom cloud was rapidly fading. Was that Los Angelos? Or Dallas? He knew he'd probably never know. He didn't know if he was glad he was on vacation or not. Henry thought maybe he might finally have something to regret: not dying in his homeland. Maybe.

He knew the xenos probably wouldn't bomb Mexico directly, but he also knew the fallout would spread quickly, challenging the detonation survivors with a second round of poisoned hell. Again, he wondered how long they had.

He lit another cigarette standing there on the beach, barefoot, barechested and breathing in some of the last fresh, salty air there would be for 20,000 years. "The bombs were never big enough for the brass," Henry thought while behind him, across the Pacific but still visible if Henry turned around, the sky was bleached for a moment in a few key spots low on the horizon.

This just in

red hot info channelled into tv, wireless iv dripping tidbits into you and me, intelli-zombies, so we go to work tomorrow telling the few who still don't know, oh my god the info, oil dripping into the cogs of the reality-machine, web spreading in a spider forest, ink spreading lazily in a sea (no that's blood)

there's no learning, only upgrades, only blurbs and buzzword cusswords, only fresh obituaries plus a hint of kiss and tell, admiring locust but 'tis just shell, losing focus so it's hard to tell, to hell you say we're going laughing flaming downward spiral? that's what I heard on my wristradio while flipping through the dial, something about the seventh wave of something viral in the Nile

manmade planet of insanity, I can handle your deadends, your checkmates, and your barbs, but somehow you have no point, no reason, no hope to ease the pain

of datastreams teeming with pathos and fads oft fed to slaves

fiberoptic kingdom sending signals into general population, oh perception has been compromised, common moneybagmen overproducing glossy nothings that catch the light just right, every show live and scripted, televised and shapeshifted, non-informing but descriptive, every newscast a satire and comedy our only refuge.

Albert Hoffman, Father of LSD, Dies at age 102

traveling magically and non-habit-forming, deforming the consciousness and culture with perfected reality torture. ripping away the veil and tripping as we all inhale a cloud of burnt up dreams (a phoneix nest of if and next)

ashes to ashes father hoffman, the one that sired psychedalia in my teenage mind, allowed me to hate myself lovingly and laugh at the joke the universe constantly tells. i wonder if perhaps you've taken the eternal trip, truly tasted the godflesh, imploded in some elegant singularity.

perhaps, perhaps you now know the dreams of the sleep of death.

regardless, you were something else and a wealthy soul, full of knowledge and chaos and questions that nobody knew existed. Father Hoffman, you mixed up visions to show the body a prison and the heady minds rage on in your wake.